Opal Light

I HAVE NO TIME.

I've written about it before, but now it's even more dire.

I had a proper melt down last weekend. Tears on Friday night and Saturday morning because I HAVE, SNIFFLE, NO TIME, SNIFFLE, TO DO ANYTHING I WAAAAANT.

It led to a very gingerly walking around boyfriend trying to speak in soft tones, so as not to wake the screaming tantrum child inside me. Soft, gentle suggestions like if ‘we help tidy, you’ll have more time’, and ‘if you say you don’t want to come, you can stay behind and have more time’.

'Time' became the buzzword of the weekend, as if I was being tormented by constant clocks, a terrifying ticking. I was a modern day Hook.

I cancelled plans then remade them because I felt guilty for cancelling them, knowing that there's no point in having more time if you're going to spend it feeling shitty.

I currently have exactly 3229 saved articles on Facebook, ones I’ve saved so I could go back to when I had more time. I’m seriously contemplating taking two days holiday off work just so I can get through them.

I’m reading about 20 books simultaneously. That's right, I pick one up I'm in the mood for, read a few pages AND THEN LEAVE IT FOR ANOTHER. They’re starting to follow me around and I can see them poking out in my peripheral vision. Having 20 Chapter 1’s in my head is driving me crazy.

So as I was pacing around crying my eyes out, I thought, NO MORE. I’ve talked about it before, but I just carried on exactly how I did before.

These are going to be my time commandments:

No more aimless scrolling - set a time limit.
Tidy the fuck up during the week so I don't spend all fooking weekend doing it. I'm seriously on the last straw with myself for this. ANY MORE AND IM BREAKING UP WITH MYSELF. 20 minutes a night of putting things away. Washing up half way through the week on a Wednesday. I can’t do it every night, I just caaaaaaaaan’t.
An hour away from the laptop every night. The laptop is a magical machine that makes time go turbo speed. An hour reading takes everything back a step, slows down my head and gives me just one thing to focus on. And chills me out before going to sleep. And solves the ‘I’m-seeing-20-books-at-the-same-time-player’ problem.
Make time to exercise/go for a run every other night. Try the stretching for flexibility YouTube video every night.
Work out how to find time to learn new things and skills. An hour or two every weekend?

I think that’s it. If I can follow my rules, we should have a happier Jess. *Boyfriend sighs with relief*

B l o g L o v i n T w i t t e r T u m b l r P i n t e r e s t

This collection is going to be Disney with a little twist.

One of the best things about artists creating Disney their own way, is that not only do we admire the skill it took to draw it, but also their imagination to put their own spin on it.

Wanting to see what each character is doing/what they're wearing/who they're with in this alternative Disney world is the main thing that makes me click through!

So, without further ado, let's have a peek.